Lol.
Had a rather shitty day today. (:


Went down to see morning FD, and saw Eve on the way down; she passed YY a gigantic Pooh, as a belated birthday present or something. Then after a while YY was like, "Was that Dawn or Eve?"
Haha, damn gay.

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Oh yah, and then she went around telling everyone who asked that it was a gift from her boyfriend.
Eh got boyfriend so what ah!
Tsk! -_-
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Lessons started off with Chem.
Didn't bring down our Chem shit when we went to see morning FD, so we had to chiong up after flag raising, since it was lab on the timetable.
I was like knocking into several people, so stupid. Think I looked like some siaozhabor, but whatever.

Then chionged down to Chem lab and ended up waiting there 'cause lab wasn't opened and there was no teacher.
In the end, lesson was in the class, so YX, YY and I basically chionged up and down for nothing.



Recess was frigging scary 'cause someone was hyperventilating, and all I could do was.. well, sit there and.. watch. Like fucking miserable and useless, lol.

Chinese was sian.
I don't know why, but for most of the day, I wasn't interested in listening to anything at all. I just wanted to sit and stone and.. think. About what, I have no idea.
I went a bit mad with BoonXuan during History. But it didn't really help much.
Math was.. bah.

Physics was the worst.
I guess the class pushed Mr Hong too far, but whatever it is, he decided to spend the last 10 minutes (and past that) of the lesson to talk about our behaviour, etc. And emphasize on how disappointed he was with us.

Lol. I wasn't paying attention during lesson because.. I don't know. I think I was thinking about something. Then Mr Hong had to ask me to answer a question at that point in time. :D Damn good okay.
I felt so frustrated, I didn't even want to think about what the fuck was going on. Didn't even want to make an effort to understand his question, lol.

Anyway, he said I wasn't focused and was going to shift me to the front pretty soon.

Fuck, whatever lol. Not happy about it at all, but I guess I deserved it.

Just feel fucking stupid because I have to keep sitting in front. Like I'm so fucking dumb, I can't stand myself. And it makes me feel bloody useless.
Anyhow, if I were bent on not paying attention during class, it's not as if putting me right in front of your face would change my mind.


Bah, so I wasn't too happy after school ended.
Just kept thinking about that issue, though it kind of got on my nerves.



We had CNY meeting, and it wasn't really fun or anything, but I think it helped distract me from thinking about any other shit, so yes.
Read Eclipse till I was going to leave school.

Was really happy, but I don't know how I recalled the incident just before school ended, and I felt shitty again. (Yah lah, I know it sounds very irritating, but whatever.) Then I just.. didn't talk.

And my next attempt at communicating failed terribly.
I felt like I'd lost touch with how to communicate with people, how to do things right and just be more.. normal. And a bit like I wassn't even worthy of living. Like I was better off.. not alive.

On the way back, I guess I forgot to look before I crossed a (small) road, so some car honked at me.
Am just wondering, what difference it would make if I were dead?

Okay lah, this sounds crappy.


Went to PL to join Boon and Yixi, then HG and Janson who (surprisingly) arrived later than me. I'd expected them to already be leaving by the time I was heading there.
But yah. Ate, played a bit of cards.
Mom called and she sounded pissed, but it pissed me off a lot.
Yeah it was late, but it wasn't as if I never told her I was staying out. And I'm grounded? Lol, screw that. I'm not going home back after school tomorrow, even if you're grounding me.
I said I was staying out late, not staying over at anyone's place. Lol, I kind of wish I could. It's not as if I really like returning back to the house with all the shit coming at me.

Sometimes, I wish I had ddxx or something. Something that could be there in the house when I need it.
Bah, lol. (:

If you read the entire post, think you're er siao, since it's full of crap and I doubt it makes any sense.

Haiyah. (: